Confused

I. Am. Confused.

And I do not know why. Confused may probably be not the right word to describe this feeling I've been having. Suddenly there is this feeling of uneasiness in me since last week.

Probably because there is some part of me that wishes I could be someone who people can look up to. And I want to be in that position very badly. It may still be a long way for me, but I somehow envy persons who reached the top of their goals at an early age.

This is just passive. This is just for now. I do hope this felling will fade away (weird song plays in head).